Goodbye 2014. Halo 2015!

I am so bad.. I did not manage to blog so much in 2014. 

Usually the last day of the year i will summarized what i've been done. 

But today.. Hahaha.. I am too busy to blog. I think today is a good day to me. Because i meet My love one. My best friend. Cass and Waimeng. I really appreciate it. Thanks!!

May all of you have a brighter and joyful 2015! XOXO

Something changed

Something has changed.

This is so complicated and does not know how..what to do and infact i am lost i think.

The last time i having this feeling is telling me things gonna be end very soon.

Is this life? 

Be strong and move on is what i keep telling myself.. 

Not too bad. At least there is someone still remember!:)

Comfort zone

I've been asking am i ready to get out from the comfort zone?

I think maybe i should really think to get out from comfort zone not only for work but also to live

A day to Remember!

I had a BIG proud of myself because i was being recognized! 

Looking for someone who can understand how I feel 

To advise

To comfort

To convince

To stand in my shoe

To share

To cheer

To celebrate

To contribute

This is not easy.

Role changed

It is all about how much you into and what you have overlook.

How lucky world cup is over and i never need to be awake middle of night. Exhausted is a confirmed and there is nothing to be question on. 

Lifestyle may not the same but objective of how to live in is something gonna compromise

Just emotion

Silent

Under estimation

Wow.. It just a new lesson to me. 

I shall not put myself onto scale with the dead one.

But am lucky to know the fact and it finally wake me from the dream.

I told myself this is just a fullstop for now so i can start my new day again! 

I think I am getting boring
Working form home isn't so nice
The great things is
You may sleep till late and get in front of you pc without wash up, make up and stuck in the jam
The bad things is
You have no one to talks
You need to take away your lunch
no break time as your lunch can always eating in front of your pc
no break time in between the 9 hours as there is no other colleague you can just walks over and talks
To me is working from home have a never ending working time
I am waiting the day turn dark almost everyday
I always wonder where i can go to get some fresh air or see peoples
Work HARD Play HARD is what i always like to do.
Maybe i just need someone to go through this together. :)
How many people really understand this and how many people can actually do that?
Well, may be not a easy one but I am still being that way
Never come to be tell me how nice is my working from home now
Try to put yourself into my shoe and think is this good for me?
Now, I work every morning til 7pm
then I start my work again 12am-3am
Gosh it is killing me staying in the same room doing the same thing.

Sunday=Suck Day

Contradiction part.2

Dear steroid (aka corticosteroid),

When I first met you, I thought the world of you. Little did I know how you were going to turn out.

The side effects!

You’ve made me put on so much weight. My skin feels like paper and I keep bruising every time I bump something.

My blood pressure is high, there’s sugar in my blood, you’ve hurt my eyes and you’ve made my muscles feel weak.

I hate the way I look. You’ve made my face puffy and look at my belly!

I’ve even heard that you’ll go as far as making my bones crumble and break.

I hate you! I want you out of my life!

But...

I do love you. You’ve been there for me through thick and thin.

You really do good work. Most times, very quickly and so effectively reducing the pain and suffer. 

Oh hell! I am sick again! It was so contradicting. 

Contradiction

Im sick im weak im lost

How do i recover?

It is killing me!

A Reminder to Myself

Everything has a time line and a due.
Trust is not about feeling but a decision
Faith will just come and goes if you do not hold your mind and make your decision.

What am i going to do?
Keep dropping notes to myself to remember what is the MUST to do and NOT TO DO?
Doing things that just because it will make everything BETTER?




Why i just cannot remember what i have written in 6 months ago and I had go beyond my self limitation.

4. You don’t have to have sex to cheat, once you find yourself deleting text’s you’re probably already there. Keep this is mind and do not easily let people go beyond my self limitation  
-posted on Friday, 27 September 2013 - A NOTE to MYSELF

Again I lets the exactly thing happened exactly 6 months later . But why? Am i really deserved this? I may not the best one but i could be the good one! How can i prevent this?

My believe is better to trust in the relationship than invest all of your trust in the behavior of another

but now, am i investing into behavior of another? Gods know!

Story of the day

A little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.
The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter: 
"Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river." The little girl said:
"No, Dad. You hold my hand." 
"What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father. 

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl. 
"If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go." 

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold yours...

Doesn't seem so right!

Unwell

I feel uncomfortable and so unwell

I am so reluctant to find out what is the root caused or i should actually know well what caused all this.

I gusss is just a hint for 'the end'

Happy Chinese New Year!

p/s: picture from google 30.1.2014. :)