Goodbye 2014. Halo 2015!

I am so bad.. I did not manage to blog so much in 2014. 

Usually the last day of the year i will summarized what i've been done. 

But today.. Hahaha.. I am too busy to blog. I think today is a good day to me. Because i meet My love one. My best friend. Cass and Waimeng. I really appreciate it. Thanks!!

May all of you have a brighter and joyful 2015! XOXO

Something changed

Something has changed.

This is so complicated and does not know how..what to do and infact i am lost i think.

The last time i having this feeling is telling me things gonna be end very soon.

Is this life? 

Be strong and move on is what i keep telling myself.. 

A day to Remember!

I had a BIG proud of myself because i was being recognized! 

Looking for someone who can understand how I feel 

To advise

To comfort

To convince

To stand in my shoe

To share

To cheer

To celebrate

To contribute

This is not easy.

Contradiction

Im sick im weak im lost

How do i recover?

It is killing me!

A Reminder to Myself

Everything has a time line and a due.
Trust is not about feeling but a decision
Faith will just come and goes if you do not hold your mind and make your decision.

What am i going to do?
Keep dropping notes to myself to remember what is the MUST to do and NOT TO DO?
Doing things that just because it will make everything BETTER?




Why i just cannot remember what i have written in 6 months ago and I had go beyond my self limitation.

4. You don’t have to have sex to cheat, once you find yourself deleting text’s you’re probably already there. Keep this is mind and do not easily let people go beyond my self limitation  
-posted on Friday, 27 September 2013 - A NOTE to MYSELF

Again I lets the exactly thing happened exactly 6 months later . But why? Am i really deserved this? I may not the best one but i could be the good one! How can i prevent this?

My believe is better to trust in the relationship than invest all of your trust in the behavior of another

but now, am i investing into behavior of another? Gods know!

Story of the day

A little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.
The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter: 
"Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river." The little girl said:
"No, Dad. You hold my hand." 
"What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father. 

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl. 
"If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go." 

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold yours...

Unwell

I feel uncomfortable and so unwell

I am so reluctant to find out what is the root caused or i should actually know well what caused all this.

I gusss is just a hint for 'the end'

Everything have to be a timeline

Thanks for sharing me the above. I promise i will do my best and get the best for myself. I don't want to let you all down and i know i deserve better from every message given by u guys. Much appreciate it! 

Complicated

Seek for the right

Try to adapt and accept

Live in balance

Still the obstacles

Feeling sad 

Getting dissapointed

Failed myself

No more tears

Struggling 

Not to lose

Afraid of the loss

Afraid of being alone

Again

Time flies

every minute every seconds 

Fears still there

Aging

Stress

Being an adult 

Act like an adult

Making the right choice

Doing the right thing for life

For ownself

Drowning

time by time day by day

Too much of unforseen circumstances 

Hate being no option but to accept

Hate to know and see the fact The truth

Doubt of self option

Doubt of how to making things happen

Who am i? I am lost?

Am i giving up my life my choice my direction?

Keep asking day by day

Seeking the light of my life

Hoping for hints?

Shall i? Just the feeling of insucure and not convincing playing in my mind my heart over and over again

Restless helpless breathless 

 

A NOTE to MYSELF

 "There’s no point in being in a relationship, if you are still going to have a single person’s mentality"

This is what I told myself after one of my best mate advised me. And this is very true and I felt am lucky that I can keep the promised in my relationship.
Of course, I always wanted things to be fair! But i think i am too week to keep my own self a promise.. and i like to tell myself..

Dear Alice,

Please take note on the below,

1. Nothing is more irritating and hurtful than a person who makes promises and breaks them over and over again. It shows lack of consideration for the others feelings and also means the person cannot be trusted or relied on.
2. The biggest mistake I have made in my life is letting people stay in my life far longer than they deserve
3. Being single is so much better than being cheated on, lied to and disrespected
4. You don’t have to have sex to cheat, once you find yourself deleting text’s you’re probably already there. Keep this is mind and do not easily let people go beyond my self limitation
5. Real men stay faithful. They don’t have time to look for other women because they’re too busy looking for new ways to love their own
6. It’s better to be unhappy alone, than unhappy with someone
7.  Forgiving is easy, trusting again is virtually IMPOSSIBLE
   
   I know myself.. Apologies or not, you could never be sorry enough!
   
   

The annoying one

When I asked you to remove me from your contact list and i really meant it. 

Always think before you act, we are NOT friend since that day ok!?

Never try ask me for favor and i really think you not deserve it. 

Life is full of disappointment

Indeed I am the minority!

St. Valentines Day

I thought ...

Living life..

In a daze now..

What am I thinking actually? ...dunno

Is that what I want?... dunno

How is gonna be tomorrow? ... dunno

Anybody there could guide me through all these?.. don't think so



BBF, i think you're the only person understand me now. where are you huh?
I've so many things needed to tell ya. I really miss those time you yelling at me.

I'm doubt. I not sure the glass is half empty or half full? How could I justify the contradiction i had now.

春嬌與志明

两个人在一起久了，很难不被对方的习惯传染，所以除了爱，习惯也是一种力量，然而如果爱情来了，再强的习惯也会倾刻间崩溃，只是爱情到底是什么呢？它是一种与亲情友情一样普通的感情么？是谈过更多次恋爱的人才更懂爱么？抑或者爱过此数越多越不会爱了呢？---春娇与志明

The injustice of defeat lies in the fact that its most innocent victims are made to look like heartless accomplices. It is impossible to see behind defeat, the sacrifices, the austere performance of duty, the self-discipline and the vigilance that are there -- those things the god of battle does not take account of.

Why Do People Cheat?

Infidelity is one of the most devastating things that can happen in a relationship. When one partner cheats on another it leaves lifelong scars. Sometimes those scars may not be evident until later in life but nobody escapes infidelity unscathed.

Cheating Can Happen to Anyone

Being young doesn’t make it easier to deal with cheating. In fact, the innocence of youth and first love can make the wounds of infidelity cut even deeper. Do people cheat because of something wrong in the relationship or is it something deep inside the cheater’s personality that leads them to stray? If a cheater cheats on one partner, will they also cheat on the next? Can you ever really trust a cheater? Should you even try? When it comes to cheating there are no easy answers.

Being Cheated On Hurts

Being cheated on by a person you love and trust is incredibly hurtful. When you are cheated on it impacts the core of how you interact with people. Infidelity makes raw nerves of things like trust, self respect, self worth and ego identity. People who have been cheated on often have difficulty trusting again. They either avoid relationships altogether or become detached serial-daters. People who have been cheated on are afraid of being hurt again.

In a strange twist many people who have been cheated on cling to the person who has betrayed them. It is a devil-you-know mentality. People who have been cheated on feel that they could never trust a new person so they are better off staying with somebody they know and hoping that person will change. The change they hope for rarely comes.

Today Job

I have decided to do the editing for my HK's trip.

I have found a very useful window app to do photo editing! Bravo~

I have decided to posted it all in one.

I have decided to post it on blog and let's the pictures tell the story.

I have decided to removed the music player in my blog because myself felt it annoying. My apologies to all my dearest blog's followers.

30's. Here I Come

Age 30 is a moment of truth when certain realities of life firmly take hold.
Here’s a list of signs that telling me that I'm turning 30. A freakin’ stiff back..

• Less partying.
• Get emo easily as like just a "clicked".
• I woke up with a back ache.
• No longer tolerate or have patience with teenagers or cocky dudes in their 20′s.
• Usually get up to pee at night instead of sleeping.
• Gain weight. I realized this in my age around 28.
• Starts saying “younger people” and “back in my day we had…”.
• Finally buy a bed frame in my age around 26
• Of course I care about my family more.
• I actually could sleep 8 hours, and wish everyone would SHUT UP so I could.
• At last I understand why Large Print books were made. I enjoy reading novel instead of comics now.

Some great realizations as turning 30 years old should be: Money is not about health, happiness, fame or peace of mind-life is. It’s not about getting drunk to be flirtatious or to cut loose, have fun, get over a bad day, or to say things we couldn‘t have when we were younger. It is realizing we do not have to ‘be friends’ with people we don’t like or who are unkind, or who annoy others just because they can. It’s hanging out with people we just plain like hanging out with. Whether we choose to celebrate or ignore the day it is just a 24 hour period and when it is past business will go on as usual.

Resolution VS Revelation

Everyone is looking forward, making New Years resolutions and planning for 2012. It is the thing to do. I am too. But, as I’m looking forward, I couldn’t help but pause and take a look back. I wondered; was there anything different, unique for me about 2011. The obvious came to mind. I started this blog.

2011 did have a very unique element to it. I made my decision to changed a new job, hoping the grass will be really greener. In my new job, I made more business partners online than i made offline. My network grew. Started a new relationship after I've been single for a year. Somehow there is still obstacles on and off but this is how we see growth I think.

Moving forward to 2012...

• Get  Healthy

Getting healthy doesn't just mean losing weight. Perhaps I getting worried on myself. The <500 steps really worries me. Imsomia is another bad habit. I must have go gym regulary and sleep before 1am every night in 2012! No more exhausted activity. Less alcohol consumption; less smoking perhaps?

• Get Happier

This is a little more of an abstract resolution that can mean different things to different people. As I always find ways to boost up my self-esteem, spend more time doing things that I love instead of things that making me feel bad about myself.

• Be a Better Person

Being a good person I think I should actually throwing some random acts of kindness into my daily routine. As time goes by, am losing my patient. So I will keep telling myself, be patient and passion!

• Show more Love to My Family

Spend more time with family! :)

• Get Better in work

Bump up my work performance by just a little bit this year!

• Pay off Debts

• Travel More

• Shopping More!!