Contradiction part.2

Dear steroid (aka corticosteroid),

When I first met you, I thought the world of you. Little did I know how you were going to turn out.

The side effects!

You’ve made me put on so much weight. My skin feels like paper and I keep bruising every time I bump something.

My blood pressure is high, there’s sugar in my blood, you’ve hurt my eyes and you’ve made my muscles feel weak.

I hate the way I look. You’ve made my face puffy and look at my belly!

I’ve even heard that you’ll go as far as making my bones crumble and break.

I hate you! I want you out of my life!

But...

I do love you. You’ve been there for me through thick and thin.

You really do good work. Most times, very quickly and so effectively reducing the pain and suffer. 

Oh hell! I am sick again! It was so contradicting. 

Contradiction

Im sick im weak im lost

How do i recover?

It is killing me!

A Reminder to Myself

Everything has a time line and a due.
Trust is not about feeling but a decision
Faith will just come and goes if you do not hold your mind and make your decision.

What am i going to do?
Keep dropping notes to myself to remember what is the MUST to do and NOT TO DO?
Doing things that just because it will make everything BETTER?




Why i just cannot remember what i have written in 6 months ago and I had go beyond my self limitation.

4. You don’t have to have sex to cheat, once you find yourself deleting text’s you’re probably already there. Keep this is mind and do not easily let people go beyond my self limitation  
-posted on Friday, 27 September 2013 - A NOTE to MYSELF

Again I lets the exactly thing happened exactly 6 months later . But why? Am i really deserved this? I may not the best one but i could be the good one! How can i prevent this?

My believe is better to trust in the relationship than invest all of your trust in the behavior of another

but now, am i investing into behavior of another? Gods know!

Story of the day

A little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.
The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter: 
"Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river." The little girl said:
"No, Dad. You hold my hand." 
"What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father. 

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl. 
"If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go." 

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold yours...