My Terrible 2

I have to mark my calendar today.
As usual I love to watch my drama and am super emo to cry myself every time.
I used to ask HIM to pass me tissues but surprisingly myterrible2 initiate herself to bring me tissues
Really touching huh.. she is grown up baby now

Also, she told me she go get me cream for my stomach aching. She asked me is zambuk ok? Ok? Ok!
Hahaha. She never forget to what i told her... my sweet baby

Jan, 06...

6 Jan 1982
My parents bring me to the world
Thanks to my mom

6 Jan ...
I always in loved
Thanks to all my friends who loves me so well

6 Jan 2007
I did a big mistake
I regret for being what I am
I promised myself I have to be good person

6 Jan 2019
I learned a lesson
It is better to lock up your heart with a merciless padlock, than to fall in love with someone who doesn’t know what they mean to you.

"Read All About It (Pt. III)"

You've got the words to change a nation

But you're biting your tongue

You've spent a life time stuck in silence

Afraid you'll say something wrong

If no one ever hears it how we gonna learn your song?

So come on, come on

Come on, come on

You've got a heart as loud as lions

So why let your voice be tamed?

Maybe we're a little different

There's no need to be ashamed

You've got the light to fight the shadows

So stop hiding it away

Come on, come on

I wanna sing, I wanna shout

I wanna scream 'til the words dry out

So put it in all of the papers,

I'm not afraid

They can read all about it

Read all about it, oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

At night we're waking up the neighbours

While we sing away the blues

Making sure that we're remembered, yeah

Cause we all matter too

If the truth has been forbidden

Then we're breaking all the rules

So come on, come on

Come on, come on,

Let's get the TV and the radio

To play our tune again

It's 'bout time we got some airplay of our version of events

There's no need to be afraid

I will sing with you my friend

Come on, come on

I wanna sing, I wanna shout

I wanna scream 'til the words dry out

So put it in all of the papers,

I'm not afraid

They can read all about it

Read all about it, oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

Yeah, we're all wonderful, wonderful people

So when did we all get so fearful?

Now we're finally finding our voices

So take a chance, come help me sing this

Yeah, we're all wonderful, wonderful people

So when did we all get so fearful?

And now we're finally finding our voices

Just take a chance, come help me sing this

I wanna sing, I wanna shout

I wanna scream 'til the words dry out

So put it in all of the papers,

I'm not afraid

They can read all about it

Read all about it, oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

I wanna sing, I wanna shout

I wanna scream 'til the words dry out

So put it in all of the papers,

I'm not afraid

They can read all about it

Read all about it, oh

Interesting quote

http://loverport.getjoyz.com/3/37846/%E4%B8%80%E5%80%8B%E4%BA%BA%E5%96%9C%E6%AD%A1%E4%BD%A0%E7%9A%84%E7%A8%8B%E5%BA%A6%E5%92%8C%E4%BB%96%E5%9B%9E%E4%BD%A0%E7%9F%AD%E4%BF%A1%E6%B6%88%E6%81%AF%E7%9A%84%E9%80%9F%E5%BA%A6.html

A song to remember!

不再说分手(电影《不再说分手》主题曲)王菀之 - 不再说分手
作曲：陈光荣
(电影《不再说分手》主题曲)

冷咖啡放在这里多久
这一杯苦涩有点过头
我们之间说过多少分手
总是以为覆水能再收

不知不觉你不再找借口
无声无息我厌倦了等候
时间让一切变得通透
我们原来很久没牵手

我不回头 你不挽留
什么时候 我们失去了纠缠的理由
怎么回头 你的咖啡已经变成红酒
酒醒后也许会难受
至少我们不用再说分手

沉默着来到十字路口
我停留你自己向前走
时间已经代替你我开口
分过的手怎能牵着走

我不回头 你不挽留
什么时候我们失去了纠缠的理由
怎么回头 你的咖啡已经变成红酒
酒醒后也许会难受
至少我们不用再说分手

冷咖啡还要再放多久
这一杯喝光了就到头
你在身边我却不再拥有
最后分手谁先说出口

Life is to give in MAXIMUM? I doubt

Goodbye 2014. Halo 2015!

I am so bad.. I did not manage to blog so much in 2014. 

Usually the last day of the year i will summarized what i've been done. 

But today.. Hahaha.. I am too busy to blog. I think today is a good day to me. Because i meet My love one. My best friend. Cass and Waimeng. I really appreciate it. Thanks!!

May all of you have a brighter and joyful 2015! XOXO

Something changed

Something has changed.

This is so complicated and does not know how..what to do and infact i am lost i think.

The last time i having this feeling is telling me things gonna be end very soon.

Is this life? 

Be strong and move on is what i keep telling myself.. 

Not too bad. At least there is someone still remember!:)

Comfort zone

I've been asking am i ready to get out from the comfort zone?

I think maybe i should really think to get out from comfort zone not only for work but also to live

A day to Remember!

I had a BIG proud of myself because i was being recognized! 

Looking for someone who can understand how I feel 

To advise

To comfort

To convince

To stand in my shoe

To share

To cheer

To celebrate

To contribute

This is not easy.

Role changed

It is all about how much you into and what you have overlook.

How lucky world cup is over and i never need to be awake middle of night. Exhausted is a confirmed and there is nothing to be question on. 

Lifestyle may not the same but objective of how to live in is something gonna compromise

Just emotion

Silent

Under estimation

Wow.. It just a new lesson to me. 

I shall not put myself onto scale with the dead one.

But am lucky to know the fact and it finally wake me from the dream.

I told myself this is just a fullstop for now so i can start my new day again! 

I think I am getting boring
Working form home isn't so nice
The great things is
You may sleep till late and get in front of you pc without wash up, make up and stuck in the jam
The bad things is
You have no one to talks
You need to take away your lunch
no break time as your lunch can always eating in front of your pc
no break time in between the 9 hours as there is no other colleague you can just walks over and talks
To me is working from home have a never ending working time
I am waiting the day turn dark almost everyday
I always wonder where i can go to get some fresh air or see peoples
Work HARD Play HARD is what i always like to do.
Maybe i just need someone to go through this together. :)
How many people really understand this and how many people can actually do that?
Well, may be not a easy one but I am still being that way
Never come to be tell me how nice is my working from home now
Try to put yourself into my shoe and think is this good for me?
Now, I work every morning til 7pm
then I start my work again 12am-3am
Gosh it is killing me staying in the same room doing the same thing.

Sunday=Suck Day

Contradiction part.2

Dear steroid (aka corticosteroid),

When I first met you, I thought the world of you. Little did I know how you were going to turn out.

The side effects!

You’ve made me put on so much weight. My skin feels like paper and I keep bruising every time I bump something.

My blood pressure is high, there’s sugar in my blood, you’ve hurt my eyes and you’ve made my muscles feel weak.

I hate the way I look. You’ve made my face puffy and look at my belly!

I’ve even heard that you’ll go as far as making my bones crumble and break.

I hate you! I want you out of my life!

But...

I do love you. You’ve been there for me through thick and thin.

You really do good work. Most times, very quickly and so effectively reducing the pain and suffer. 

Oh hell! I am sick again! It was so contradicting. 

Contradiction

Im sick im weak im lost

How do i recover?

It is killing me!

A Reminder to Myself

Everything has a time line and a due.
Trust is not about feeling but a decision
Faith will just come and goes if you do not hold your mind and make your decision.

What am i going to do?
Keep dropping notes to myself to remember what is the MUST to do and NOT TO DO?
Doing things that just because it will make everything BETTER?




Why i just cannot remember what i have written in 6 months ago and I had go beyond my self limitation.

4. You don’t have to have sex to cheat, once you find yourself deleting text’s you’re probably already there. Keep this is mind and do not easily let people go beyond my self limitation  
-posted on Friday, 27 September 2013 - A NOTE to MYSELF

Again I lets the exactly thing happened exactly 6 months later . But why? Am i really deserved this? I may not the best one but i could be the good one! How can i prevent this?

My believe is better to trust in the relationship than invest all of your trust in the behavior of another

but now, am i investing into behavior of another? Gods know!

Story of the day

A little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.
The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter: 
"Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river." The little girl said:
"No, Dad. You hold my hand." 
"What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father. 

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl. 
"If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go." 

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold yours...