Independance 2004 at Genting....

sinGapoRe...

Back from vocation…I’m so scare le..im going to have my SIP test on Thurs. I think I must be failing this time..but anyway, I really enjoy my trip to Singapore..it’s been 2 years I never been there. I do went Sentosa Island this time..what a nice place le..especially da Musical Fountain. I will never forget da 30 min performance and KIKI also..the main character of the performance...it’s the fantastic performance I ever seen in my life..i miss dat so much le..

Come A Little Closer

verse 1 :
I know that it's late , and maybe and I shouldn't be so into you.
It's just that tonight , I am so taken I'm fallen for you.
When I look in your eyes I can see , a million possibilities.
And I know you'll be leaving me soon , but tonight

-chorus:
Come a little bit closer , let me hold you baby,
I will be good to you , and we can try , to forget tomorrow,
make it last forever tonight.
So if you must go - oh ohhh oh,
know that I'll be missing you wishing you closer,
uhh , uhh ,uhh, ooh oh oh oh.
So let's make the most of these moments together we'll never forget.
And it's breaking my heart cause I know,
that tomorrow you'll be miles away.
And I catch myself wanting so much more , tonight - come closer

chorus
bridge -
So if you're leaving me now, baby I don't know how.
I will never get over you, because you opened my eyes,
to this love thats inside , oh baby , baby , Don't ever leave me

What I've Learned About Friendship  recently??!!...
I've learned that you can do something or nothing with a best friend and still have the best time and that nothing ever sounds stupid, funny, or unbelievable to a best friend, and you never feel stupid saying whatever it is.  In many cases, a hug and a kind word from a best friend is the only thing that helps get you through the day. And best friends stay up all night and on the phone for hours talking without even realizing it.
 The most importantly of all, best friends will always be best friends, no matter what is happening in their lives, where they are, or what they are doing. A best friend is irreplaceable. This is the most important thing I could have ever been taught by a best friend.

Did You Ever Wonder?

Did you ever wonder what
It would be like...
              If Children ruled the world?
 
Skyscrapers of building block
Streets of chalk-o-late bars
And toys on every corner.
 
The world would be perfect
No wars, no jobs, no school
And everyone would gather...
               At the plastic swimming pool.
 
But ah, this is on fantasy,
Because adults seem to think
That the only way to think
Is the only way they think
But if everyone thought the way they think
I would be inclined to think
That we could not think...
                At all.
 
It sort of makes you wonder
Why adults make life so hard
And exactly what would become of us...
                If children ruled the world.

i'm so busy these days..couseworks..courseworks and again courseworks..just busy till today only i can hav a break..i hate my studies le..im tired ...i need rest i guess..i 've been thru so many things for the last few days and now i realized dat  life is so hard for me..though i knew early before..but again, i'm so scared... i wish i could tell him everything..how i wish he can understand me better..how i wish he could spent more time with us..i even thought of write him a letter..but im so scare if i do write to him he get me wrong again. i felt so useless and helpless.... i can only felt hurt inside..... in my heart...i 'd already tried my very best but i just never get any recognition! am i a disappontment? i know many of you there felt dat ..but what can i do huh? i really do my very best..what i wish is just lives happily..but when everytime you hoping for something,make sure you 're ready to handle the disappointment..can someone just teach me how to please people in a better and nicer way..?how to get out of being such a disappointment...

Sorry for not updating my blog..i kinda busy these day..i think everyone is wondering there how come i keep posting up such complicated articles..i also dunno..when i was surfing..automatically i'll go search those kind of topics..mayb i'm confused to something..someone maybe thought i'm upset or depresse..i really hav no idea ya..but what i posting in dis blog is my point of view of how's life actually is... 

                                      Every Sunset Gives Us,

                                      One Day Less To Lives!

                                                       But

                                      Every Sunrise Gives Us, 
                                      One Day More To Hope!

                                             So Always Hope,

                                               For The Best.

My New Best Friend

Today I met a great new friend, who knew me right away
It was funny how she understood all I had to say

She listened to my problems, my dreams…
We talked about love and life
She’d been there, too, it seems

I never once felt judged by her; she knew just how I felt
She seemed to just accept me, all the problems I’d been dealt

She didn’t interrupt me or need to have her say
She just listened very patiently and didn’t go away

I wanted her to understand, how much this meant to me
But as I went to hug her, something startled me

I put my arms in front of me and went to pull her nearer
And realized that my new best friend
Was nothing but a mirror…

hahaha..dont't ever get mad when you know it’s just a mirror ..it's true ..just ourselves can always read our own mind..but to me ..my best friend is my dear diary..i will let her know every single things about myself. Someone asked me to post my daily activity here..but I just failed to do it.. don’t ask me why..i don’t know too..

Paint Brush...

I keep my paintbrush with me wherever I may go,
In case I need to cover up, so the real me don’t show.
I’m so afraid to show you me,
Afraid of what you’ll do – that
You might laugh or say mean thing.
I’m afraid I might lose you.

I’d like to remove all my paint coats
To show you the real, true me,
But I want you to try and understand,
I need you to accept what you see.
So if you’ll be patient and close your eyes,
I’ll strip off all my coats real slow.
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show.

Now my coats are all stripped off.
I feel naked, bare and cold,
And if you still love me with all that you see,
You are my friend, pure as gold.

I need to save my paintbrush, though,
And hold it in my hand, I want to keep it handy
Incase somebody doesn’t understand.
So please protect me, my dear friend
And thanks for loving me true,
But please let me keep my paintbrush with me
Until I love me, too.

i think everyone will keep a paintbrush with them, even infront of the one dat really close to them..not to say cover up or what..but just becoz of the thought of insecurity i guess. But as time goes by..the true color will shows..til then no matter how hard you try to cover up..there's nothing you can do to change the truth...

Being aLone...

I think that people are afraid of change. People get so used to these long term relationships that when they go bad it seems like they don't even realize it. No matter is with your man or your friends. Its a routine and when your routine is broken it feels like your life is disruptive. I know for myself when looking at past realtionships, I realize that I usually let them go on for longer than is needed and I think that this is true for many other people too. And yes, maybe people are afraid of being alone. Once you get used to seeing the same person every day or evey weeked or whatever, its hard to give it up.

Changes...

"Friends forever," you promised. "Together till the end."
We did everything with each other. You were my best friend.

When i was sad, you were by my side.
When i was scared you felt my fear.
You were my best support -- If i needed you, you were there.

You were the greatest friend, You always knew what to say:
You made everything seem better. As long as we had each other,
Everything would be okies...

But somewhere along the line, We slowly came apart.
I was here, you were there, It tore a hole in my heart.

Things were changing, Our cheerful music reversed it's tune.
It was like having salt without pepper, A sun without its moon.

Suddenly we were miles apart,
2 different people, with nothing the same.
It was as if we knew deep in our hearts ...
Neither one of us was to blame.

You had made many new friends ; And luckily, so had i
But that didn't change the hurt--
The loss of our friendship made me cry.

As we grow older, things must change..
But they don't always have to end
Even though it is different, now, You will always be my friend.


im just wondering ..do u read my page? do u feel the same way as me??

Trust...

Letting others know your feelings, emotions and reactions, and having the confidence in themto respect you and to not take advantage of you.

Sharing your inner feelings and thoughts with others with the belief that they will not spread them indiscriminately.
Placing confidence in others so that they will be supportive and reinforcing of you, even if you let down your "strong'' mask and show your weaknesses.
Assuming that others will not intentionally hurt or abuse you if you should make an error or a mistake.
The inner sense of acceptance you have of others with whom you are able to share secrets, knowing they are safe.
The sense that things are fine; that nothing can disrupt the bond between you and the other.

The ability to let others into your life so that you and they can create a relationship built on an understanding of mutual respect, caring, and concern to assist one another in growing and maturing independently.
The glue or cement of relationships that allows you to need others to fulfill yourself.
Opening yourself up to let others in on your background, problems, concerns, and mistakes with the assurance that they will not ostracize you because of these things.
The act of placing yourself in the vulnerable position of relying on others to treat you in a fair, open, and honest way.


hmm..it's really hard for me to trust someone else..since when i feel dats huh?? really got no idea..but anyway life still goes on ...and everything changes but beauty remains, something so tender even I can’t explain..Can we make the everything last forever? And I’ll cherish all the love we share.....

Please Listen

When I ask you to listen to me
and you start giving me advice,
you have not done what I asked.
When I ask you to listen to me
and you begin to tell me why
I shouldn’t feel that way,
you are trampling on my feelings.
When I ask you to listen to me
and you feel you have to do something
to solve my problem,
you have failed me,
strange as that may seem.
Listen! All I ask is that you listen.
Don’t talk or do – just hear me.
Advice is cheap; 20 cents will get
And I can do for myself; I am not helpless.
Maybe discouraged and faltering,
but not helpless.
When you do something for me that I can
and need to do for myself,
you contribute to my fear and
inadequacy.
But when you accept as a simple fact
that I feel what I feel,
no matter how irrational,
then I can stop trying to convince
you and get about the business
of understanding what’s behind
this irrational feeling.
And when that’s clear, the answers are
obvious and I don’t need advice.
Irrational feelings make sense when
we understand what’s behind them.
Perhaps that’s why prayer works, sometimes,
for some people – because God is mute,
and he doesn’t give advice or try
to fix things.
God just listens and lets you work
it out for yourself.
So please listen, and just hear me.
And if you want to talk, wait a minute
for your turn – and I will listen to you.


Well, what could i say is it's take a lot of understanding, time and trust to gain a close friendship with someone..and i really been through this. As i approach a time of my life of complete uncertainty, my friends are my most precious asset.

mY faV bOok..

Title: Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul.
Authors: Jack Canfield, Mark Victor Hanes, Kimberly Kirberger.

Don't judge a book by it's cover, cause if you do, you might think that this is a cook book. If you are feeling down, or think that life is so unfair, or wanted to end your life recently, well, STOP! Read this book first.

Finally there's a book that we ( as teenages ) could relate to. A book that teaches us what friendship is all about and also teaches us that suicide is not cool and what it could do to your love ones if you do tend to end your life. This book shows us that life is precious.

This book is going to be your bestfriend. I personally know this, cause this book had helped me in many ways and had taught me that life is tough but you gotta be strong and suicide is not a way out of any problems at all. There are other options too and its O.K to cry.

feel like having it?
Go tO..
www.amazon.ca/exec/obidos/ASIN/155874942X

insecurity.....

1. Feeling of not being ``good enough'' to meet the challenge of a situation you face in life.
2. Sense of helplessness in the face of problems, conflict, or concerns.
3. Belief that one is inadequate or incompetent to handle life's challenges.
4. Fear of being discovered as inadequate, ill fitted, or unsuited to meet responsibilities at home, school, or on the job.
5. Sense of not fitting in, being ``out of synch'' with those in your peer group.
6. Perception that life is unpredictable with most of the expectations you have to meet not clearly understood.
7. Sense of always climbing ups a mountain, never being able to reach the top.
8. Sense of lacking support or reinforcement where you live, work, or play.
9. Results from a sense of being unaccepted, disapproved, or rejected.
10. Inner turmoil coming from a lack of direction or bewilderment as to where you are going, what your goals are, and what responses are appropriate for events in life.

does anyone knows how to get rid of the feeling of insecurity? i'm so scared... i felt so useless and helpless.... i can only felt hurt inside..... in my heart...and no matter how hard i work to achieve, i never get any recognition! I am incompetent in everything...I failed them in the past; therefore, I am a failure today!?? Once a failure, always a failure!????.........

hey this is my first publish...i dunno wat to say damn....but
something i wish to say is Some people come into our lives and quickly go.Some stay for a while and leave footprints on our hearts.And we are never,ever the same....and no matter how hard i try... it's still remain the same...i'm really tired of all this...